I guess I shouldn't have said anything

Of couse we are now in the middle of a sleep regression, right after I said Baby Peanut was sleeping fine. He's been waking every hour, screaming, needing to nurse to fall asleep. I'm trying to reduce the number of nursing sesions at night, because 5 or 6 are just not feasible, but so far the best I've managed is three, with wakings every hour in between.

I *think* he's having confusional arousals, amd not actually waking up. Not sure if it's developmental or if he needs an earlier bedtime now that he's dropping a nap, though, but he rouses screaming, eyes closed shut, and eventually he stops and is suddenly fast asleep again. He's even opening his eyes and staring through me or rolling into his stomach with his eyes closed, crying. Cookie isn't sure he's asleep, but he doesn't seem awake to me. Even the crying and screaming is different. Needless to say, I kind of really need some consolidated sleep.

I had stress dreams the last couple of nights. It was weird, this time around they were about meetig new clients and getting new projects. I also had a stress dream about failing all my classes because of a big misunderstanding on my part. I thought I was all done with dreaming about school!

I ended up asking someone to help me with the office renovation project this morning, I don't think the pay is worth the amount of stress it was causing me. Hopefully that will make it go away faster! I don't really want to take on any new projects right now, though I probably will. I would love to get some completely free days, to do my Christmas shopping and declutter my house and my office and visit some relatives. I'm gonna try to make some time. I already feel better, anxiety wise, now that school is done, but I suspect the anxiety is shifting to the whole "new projecta aversion" and it might paralize me later. One step at a time, though.