Hit the ground running

Baby Peanut is six  and a half months old. Almost 29 weeks, yikes! In ten weeks he will have spent as much time in my womb as outside, I can't wrap my head around that. I grew that baby! From scratch! He used to fit in my womb, whaaaat. Giant baby is now 9 kg, so we're a kilo away from tripling his birth weight. Or in another words, what the hell. It is super cool to know that I grew him from scratch (disassociated as I am from the whole birth/pregnancy) and that then I fattened this little piggy too, all with my body. It makes me feel really cool, to be able to keep a human being alive and thriving! I've been suuuuper lucky in that we had no glitches breastfeeding, for the most part. I have also been super lucky to have a friend who recently went through all of these, and who has been supporting me and helping me cope, and that I live in the information era, where all I need to do is google and read.

Which I have done. A LOT.

So much, in fact, that I am always surprised when I hear other people don't over research. My SILs don't even have a pregnancy app! Or a weekly pregnancy calendar! Or two dozen blogs about pregnancy/parenting/cloth diapers/attachment parenting/co-sleeping/the burning issue in me head this week. I have to laugh at myself and my neurosis, but it really does help. I feel like even if everything is new and challenging, at least I have some sort of safety line.

These mornings I've been starting to get to my pre-pregnancy weight. Not every day, and and more often than not I'm still half a kilo away from it, but I'm really happy aboit it. Everything changed, though. There's less in some places (ass, where did you go?) And much more in other places, at least temporarily (fun cleavage!), and lots of.. Looseness? Skin being... Weird? I guess I'm still a long way from my skin getting used to having less to cover. My abdominal diastasis is mostly recovered too, less than once centimeter to go. It was very creepy for a while, to have that hole between the muscles.

And then there's my chia pet head. Apparently by the lenght of the new hair I have, the moment Baby Peanut was born I started growing a new layer of hair. So I have this... Cap. Of sorts. Of an inch and a half long hairs, fanning everywhere. Like a chia pet. They cannot be tamed. I look pretty ridiculous and kond of unkempt, and my students already noticed them and ughh I almost died of embarrasment at their puzzled looks and comments of "you have... A lot of tiny hairs." YES THANK YOU. But I guess soon they will flatten out? If not, at least there's only 3 more weeks of school and then there will be no more 20 year olds commenting on my mommy style trending chia pet hair.